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:I'm back:
I do apologize for not posting for quite some time!
Life has just gotten the better of me, I suppose.

I actually typed out two entries that I never even posted, so I'm going to post one of them to keep things a wee bit more up to date.

December 17th:

( Dear Blog World:)

I haven't updated in like two weeks- shame shame.
One word for all who care to read-

BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY!
You get the picture.

I'm truly excited to be going home on tuesday-I miss everyone so much! I can't wait to hug everyone and tell them everything about this crazy new world I've been submerged into. I hate knowing that there will be tensions with my younger sister, but hopefully things won't be too bad. Christmas time is going by WAY too fast here in NYC! I think Christmas should take up like 6 months out here! It's SO beautiful everywhere on the upper west side. Lights on the trees and everything. I finally experienced snow for the first time last week- It didn't snow for very long, but now I can at least say I have been IN snow.
I have spent a lot of money the past few weeks, and not even on Christmas presents entirely, but on myself, and in light of this season I feel really bad. I had to buy shoes, I bought my beautiful blackberry bold 2 and my winter puffy coat from northface. I need to watch it, but it's like once you start with money YOU CAN'T STOP!

So, that was like a week before I left to come home and it was SO overwhelming. I cannot even imagine what things will be like upon my arrival back in New York. Tonight will conclude my trip back home in California. UGH one cannot truly appreciate their home until they leave. It makes me teary to think about going back to New York City tomorrow away from so many people I love here. But thinking about why I'm there makes me feel a lot better- otherwise I would be miserable here in Cali, why? Because I would be doing nothing. I'm working towards pursuing something so important to me here. Of course I miss Adam, my friends, my family, my cats, my starbucks- everything. But I'm doing what I need to at this point in my life and that is what matters. This trip has gone sooo perfectly I can't even describe it. I wish I had more time, but this is what was served up. Christmas was absolutely wonderful - no huge family fights or even cats throwing up ribbon. The only strange part was my mom walking out of Sherlock Holmes because apparently it "bothered" her. I enjoyed it- wasn't the most fantastic thing I've ever seen, but it was decent. I was really surprised at the gifts my siblings and I received, because we are flat broke losing our home right now- why gifts? My parents are amazing. I got to see Ms. April Cleveland (not as much as I would have liked to) and that was fantastic. I saw most everyone who remains from my old starbucks store- I chilled with Hoder and Justin their kitty whom I named Dorito. I'm so happy I got to see a lot of people from the past back in my life, and a little sad I couldn't see EVERYONE but oh well..there is this whole summer for that. Adam was gone for most of my first week here, but that allowed me to get to spend time with my family a lot more which is so so so important. We did the whole shabang of going to see christmas lights and renting movies, and of course the most important...The Home Alone marathon. Well, besides gaining some weight back (grr) and way too much herb I think I loved everything about this trip. New Years was absolutely out of this world. Dylan, Adam and I went to Together As One- TAO and it was soooo soooo just amazing. No other words...just perfection. Thousands upon thousands of people as happy as can be bringing in the new year. Loved it so much! Adam's christmas present to me as DISNEYLAND! UH my favorite place in the whole world :D! It was spitting rain on us all day and the park was sold out at maximum capacity, and yet... we had a great time. We always do. I do love my soulmate oh so very much. Well, tonight we capped off my trip with dinner at The Grove. I hate to go, but I do know that there are so many things ahead of me this year. positive positive positive! I will miss a lot, but I know I have so much to look forward to.

I'll do the whole new years resolution blog mumbo jumbo later...

Happy New Year Blog World :D

Sup monday?

Uh Oh! There was a monster in my bed
We french kissed on a subway train
He tore my clothes right off
He ate my heart then he ate my brain

Why the lady gaga lyrics when every adolescent teen and their mom plays it out until their blue in the face?
Because I can.
Guilty pleasure...perhaps?

Well well well monday...we meet again...and again... and hey, for funzies...once more. This probably isn't good to be THIS tired at the beginning of a fresh week, but hopefully at some point I will be able to catch up on some ZzZzZ's. But hey, who needs sleep anyway? This is after an iced coffee from the stand near the school (which made me feel like I was going to vomit a small child UH!) There were also CHUNKS of sugar in this iced coffee. Oh well, note to self: No more stand on the side of the road iced coffee ever again. Also, you gotta love working at starbucks sometimes. Why? Marked out pastries. We had SO many last night, and I feel bad for not taking more for my friends, BUT I was selfish and just took enough for my breakfast (whoops.) Man, you gotta love procrastination- currently for example: Am I rehearsing for tap class? Oh no, I'm blogging and looking at boots online. Gosh, I'm focused today...NOT.

Well, thanksgiving was interesting.
It really was so nice of Marcos's family to invite me over, and it was really nice getting to see him FINALLY since I moved here, but things ended on a weird note I think.
Wow, these boots on urban.com are REALLY distracting I must say haha!
I'm really loving the dorm room today, because I bought this new desk organizer with black trim, and it looks OH so much better than my broken white one with duck tape on it.
Well, midterms are coming up and starbucks pastries are making me fat again, so I'm gonna to cut that off asap.
Today is Strokos monday with Brittney, yay!

Well, I'll be blogging more as the week goes on.
I almost posted a really cheezy quote from a celion dion song, and I'm really happy I didn't.

Bad Day

It's 2:30 in the afternoon and I just want to go back to bed....
Seriously, my life is full of so many ebbs and flows right now that I feel like I'm gonna throw up. People seem interested in being apart of my life then totally back out, and then there's the issue I'm dealing with right now. Being financially independent from my dad. I love my dad to death; he is a great guy, but when it comes to finances I CANNOT be in that shadow anymore- I won't. I can't buy a new phone because he is two payments late; I can't sign up to pay my own monthly bill until he pays his. I'm homesick, and yet... I KNOW I wouldn't feel better where I home. So, where do I belong? With whom? I hate feeling so alone, but I suppose that's life for you. Everyone is only interested as long as it's convenient for them. And oh joy, work tonight. Can't wait.... I hate being so glass half empty, but sometimes shit just catches up. Oh well, I have two and half hours until work and I'm going to attempt to use them wisely. As for boys: you never change.

Oh well, at least I can listen to John Mayer and rehearse in peace :D

I don't eat tofurky, thankfully.

(These are baby turkeys; just in case anyone was curious)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING, WORLD!

Let me just say that having my dorm room to myself for four days is going to be more than refreshing. Hopefully Carolyn will have a nice time where shes at, but seriously I have never felt SO free to just do what I want to do and shower with the door open and walk around with no towel (tmi? sorry...) but ANYWAY tis a lovely feeling. I have the next two days off, so I'm heading off to Mamaroneck, New York to spend time with Marcos and company. SO excited! Marcos and I have been friends for like... six years? Legit Legit. I do really miss my family today; even though my mom isn't even with my brother/sister/dad I remember all of our crazy past thanksgivings running around filming EVERYTHING (which we always inevitably lost anyway...) and the various guests whom would grace our house every year. Basically I'm missing my mom's mashed potatoes...yah...I'm pretty much devastated thanksgiving 09' will not consist of those babies, AHHH ohmyGod they are just...so good. mmm. New York City really is the perfect place to be around the holidays, period. Even though I was lazy and didn't go out to see the parade today when I walked to starbucks to get coffee everything was just so beautiful and I really love love love the scenery here. BUT in honor of the day I would like to briefly touch upon what I am "thankful for" even though I have never liked that phrase; I'm strange, whatever.

I am thankful for :
My support from my parents
My Mum
My Dad
Isabella and Domenico
Adam
My cats
My long time friends
My newly found friends
AMDA
Chocolate chip cookies
Independence
Free Thinking
Knowledge
Having an Internet signal to steal (shh)
My job (despite how frustrating it may be)
My Itouch
My Talents
The Strat
Being healthy
Theatre
New York City

The list could go on into a bajillion stupid tid bits things that I love, but those are some of the main points. Today will be different, but certainly not in a bad way. I'm excited for the continuous change that is taking place in my life- honestly, I'm embrassing it. Well, Marcos is coming in soon and we are going to frolic about the city for a few hours and then head off back his way. SO, Happy Thanksgiving everyone. :D

Who say zip up leotards aren't fantastic?

....my state of mind//emotions should befriend a jamba juice smoothie right now- they have a lot in common at this point in time...



Wow, so I typed out this whole blog probably 2 paragraphs worth, and my browser went just...sadkjbdjbfkjbfkdbkbfsdkbfksdbsdkfbfwbkwfbkfbkwejb. So, thats fantastic... I'll just start another one...

Well, today is Monday and I must say I'm so excited for this week. Very little work (including no work tonight, which is just...grand) But really I don't have school thursday/friday and I'm going to get to see Marcos which I'm so so so excited about. He probably thinks I'm a total goober for writing that at all, but hey moving on... I just love pajamas. Really, I walk around all day with my bag that feels like it's carrying an elephant, my tights and just...layers. New York turns you into an onion with so many layers, dang! But it's just so nice to strip down and wear comfy t- shirts and victorias secret pants (I'm very descriptive tonight apparently...)

Today was Strokos monday :D Brittney and I had quite a bit to talk about from this weekend since we hadn't seen each other, and it's soo nice to be able to spill my life out to someone. Awe Brittney <3 <3 <3 hah! ANYWAY, tap kicked my ass (huge surprise) even though I did feel a little more confident. I love that Carolyn and I's room is staying clean and organized; it's great! I also love that instead of cooking or rehearsing tonight thus far I went to Urban and got boots AND I'm currently blogging. Shows how well I'm using my time today. Oh well, Carolyn just got back so it gives me a reason to get goin on the rest of my evening.

May I just say something about myself:
I really HATE when people ask nervous questions to fill space in time.
Maybe it's just certain moods I get in with certain people..aka roommates and parents, but WOW it bugs me.

I miss Soliel a lot, and I bet she misses her mommy. Meow Meow.

RA RA UH UH UH GAGA OOH LA LA

Longest Week EVER

And it's only friday!

I must say I am quite thankful that I had yesterday and tonight off. Working Monday- Wednesday from 6 until midnight or 1am when class ends at 5:30 is REALLY not workin for me. Honestly though, I keep thinking about it and it's like...this is it. Seriously, if one chooses to be an actor for their profession forget about living comfortable; it just won't happen. So, it really is a good sampling for me as to how the next chunk of years of my life should spell out. I can say that living in New York City is extremely frustrating because of food. Straight up- give me a break! I'm attempting to dance my belly, thighs,etc etc off! But here NYC goes throwing cupcakes, cookies, pizza, pasta, sorbets, muffins and BANANA PUDDING at me! It truly is a conspiracy. I can say that one of my top observations here is hands down less fat people. I have seen maybe 4 obese people in my time here. I mean wow, hello, that is saying something about Californians. Sorry guys... Anyway, so basically this week consisted (thus far) of way too much work and far too little rehearsal time. SO FRUSTRATING not to be able to have that time! But next week should be MUCH better as far a my work schedule goes. Ragtime was absolutely astonishingly amazingly phinominal. I was blown away by the performances, the voices and the show itself. Wonderful Wonderful, Really. All in all sunday was a day spent slugging through times square in what felt like that ride at disneyland- the jungle tour ride that I always skip out on. But yah, it was that atmosphere minus the tour guide with great comedic timing. Brittney, Sarah, Cassie and I dubbed it : The Spitting Rain. It felt like God was gleeking on us all. Anyway, we looked like crap but the Chipotle was great, and the evening was quite fun. Sunday Sunday Sunday was a long day- but a beautiful eye opening one. My roommate and I walked 2 blocks over to Central Park simply to walk around, and let me just say it was the PERFECT park day. Let's just say it hit me like a freight train WHY people travel from all over the world to view this park. It is seriously...like..magical or something. I felt like I was in enchanted; fountains, ducks, leaves every color of the rainbow, music, artists, photographers, lakes, trees and a teeny tiny breeze. AH it was amazing. I was able to finally get out a photograh a bit, which for me was SO nice, really I miss my hobby.

Here are some favorites:

All in all I must say it was SUCH refreshing experience. The rest of the week just sort of went downhill from there. I got nowhere near enough sleep, and I barely had time to rehearse anything. So
Monday
was what has affectionattly been labeled by Brittney and I: Strokos Monday. This amazing place we got to eat @ on mondays after tap. Tap in itself is such a challenge, I love it but dear lord! So, I helped with holiday turnover on monday night and got held way longer than I was supposed to but, I got to do the Daily Offerings board so dgaf, right?
Tuesday
Was very frustrating all in all, mainly because of lack of rehearsal. Not being prepared and top of my game is literally like THE most annoying feeling for me. uh! So...lets just say tuesday was one huge pain in the ass. Nothing more to say....
Wednesday
Involved the most amazing hummus bar on the planet, therefore making it so much better than the previous day. Markus cancelled acting class again, because he is a foxy constantly auditioning and getting called back actor. So, post- jazz class Brittney and I had the hummus experience. SO GOOD! Then I went and did all the token "girl stuff" I needed to do: pedicure/eyebrow. Cause I was dying! But yes, all in all wednesday my usually busy overwhelming day was SUPER nice.
Thursday
Not too shabby. Acting with Markus...what can I say? It's always a pleasure. Hah! He is so talented, and it's really nice to be educated by someone like him. My voice lesson went alright- I'm such a perfectionist/over-performing show girl that it's so difficult to pull back all my razzle dazzle to simplify everything! I'm trying :( ! Voice& Speech with Tim Ryan was an experience (as always) Gotta love Tim Ryan with his sexy booming voice. Hah! No yoga yesterday though, which was rather disapointing, but oh well the vowel scale must go on. Post- school I did laundry with Britt and Ezorah. AND then chilled with some fellow K1s for what became quite a fun evening filled with laughs, rain, walking, banana pudding, veggie chips and hummus. Oh, yes.

Well now that I've written a novel...
I think were up to speed thus far.

PS: I bought a tiny bottle of apple juice for $5 at Ragtime! why?

First Saturday off

Today is my first day weekend off of work since AMDA life began. I spent half of it sleeping in and the other half trudging through the misty crowded streets of Times Square and Broadway. One of five fluffy-haired wet (but wise to wear rain boots) girls slugging along trying to get student rush tickets to various shows. Our final destination up on 52nd was Ragtime, and I'm SO pyched to see it! Might I just say that Chipotle is a gift from God having been convieniatly planted just 3 blocks from where I live. Nom Nom Nom. Well, this is going to be a short post, because I'm goin to a Broadway show beetchs. I shall blog later.

Wear your rain boots.